You know in the beginning of Moses’s journey with God He was
afraid, nervous, and probably we could even say scared silly. He knew that in
himself he could not perform the tasks God was asking him to do and he knew
that letting God down was not something he wanted on his “resume’”. So he
whined, isn’t that what any good god-fearing servant does before beginning
something hard and challenging? I mean think about it… don’t we whine when God
throws us a curve ball? Don’t we fuss when all of a sudden the path changes and
our desires take a back seat to god’s plan? But you know God didn’t change His
mind, didn’t waver in the plan he had for Moses, but he did provide Moses with
a helper, with a partner along the journey. God used Aaron to show Moses that
His ways are perfect and when he says, “do this” we should never doubt that God
knew how we would achieve and that more importantly he would give us the tools
we needed to succeed.
So how do you think Moses felt as the Israelites were
fleeing Pharaoh? Do you think he thought “oh yeah, I’m somebody and I’ve done
something now”, or do you think even then after seeing all that God had done,
all that God had used him to do he was still afraid, still nervous, and
probably still scared silly? I
think he was still scared silly, but you know the cool part? You know what
makes me want to be like Moses? He never quit walking! He never gave up and
even when He and the people were stuck wandering in the wilderness year after
year, he persevered. Sure he had moments of doubt, of anger, and you know I bet
there were times He was certain he had a better plan to get the people to where
they needed to be than God’s. And yes, there were a few times He did “let God
down”, there were moments when his flesh took over, when his ambition got in
the way, and his human emotions ran rampant. But he was man enough (child of
God enough) to admit those faults, to take responsibility for those sins, and
still cling to God’s promise of a new home for the Israelites a new life for
his children. Moses was a man but more
than that, Moses was God’s man. Yes,
he had flesh; yes, he made mistakes, but you know what: His walk with God grew
year after year, deepened day after day and in the darkest moments in the
wilderness, when eating more manna made Moses want to cry; He still walked, He
still trusted, and He still followed God.
